Dead Feelings

I have been staring at
the writing on the wall
For way too long
I have been watching
the same show
Holding my breath
until I inevitably fall
I look at my gun
Knowing there's just
one bullet left
And all I can think of
Is putting it straight
through my head
I just wish I could be
where the sky begins
at the end of the sea
The blinding light
In between
Forcing me to
close my open eyes
And listen to my silent
Heartbeat to know
I am finally dead