One More Time

Walking under the light
Of that big orange ball
With rays that are still
Far reaching and
hard at work for us all
keeping us safe
Keeping us warm
I get to the 5th floor
All I hear is silence
So deafening
So frightening
Like a monster drawn
By a fast growing 5 year old
I am staring at the wall
Alone again in a room
Full of people
I don't really know
Asking myself
Where did it all go?
Where am I going?
Why is everyone
I love gone?
Smiles greeting my
fading hope
I am feeling like
The hanged man
swinging back and forth
From the old rope
I'm waiting one more time
For a date
That has put my life on hold
That has been delayed
For far too long
By an almost tragically
adverse fate
So here I am
One more time
Sitting, crying in my truck
While life goes on
And no one gives a fuck