A Summer Night

As the dark of the night begins to take over the light of the day I find myself here at it again. Typing on my old computer keyboard as my thoughts go back and forth to a wild past week of ups and downs that could take any sanity left on the brink and lead to self-destruction.  But I will dig deep one more time to find the balance I  have found and hope to keep in my life until the end. I won't bother you again with the details that cause me to search for that inner strength that can keep those false ideas you have expressed and that so selfishly damage my new found peace and love for myself. I won't let your ignorance, even if guided by love, deny my existence. It took me these many years to be finally happy within. Please understand and accept that it is not something you or someone else did. It was not a drug nor something toxic in the waters. I do not owe you anything other than the love I have always shown and continue to share with you. Do not make me suffer for each word you search to understand, I am being me, beautifully different, unique, and finally free. Let your words give me the warmest hugs, let my love keep reaching you as it always did.