Exiting Social Apps

As of last night, I made a painful decision to exit apps like kik and mewe. I was on these apps actively for a long time. To those who I truly cared for, I am sorry. I need a break to reevaluate things, to change myself, hopefully for the better.

For those people who were very supportive and shared a genuine kindness and interesr towards me, I am sorry.

I am not ghosting anyone. If you really have any interest in our friendship,  you know where to find me. I need you.

If not, well, maybe I will see you at some point at some true social event.

My disphoria is at an all time high. I need to concentrate on the battles at hand. 

I am searching for meaningful friendships and relationships,  and im afraid with some notable exceptions,  I keep searching them in the wrong places finding an alarming amount of shallow sameness with improbable dynamics leading me back to a path I do not want anymore.

Of course, like I mentioned earlier, there are exceptions and i was lucky to have met people I genuinely loved. They are the reasons I am sorry and that i am writing this. Please know i am so happy to have met you. I still hope you will remain part of my life.

Please understand, at the moment, I truly need to work more with myself in order to be of any value to you.

You have my number, you know where I live, and if you are reading this, you also know I will be here continuing sharing myself. 

Gaby Ann Love