Highs and Lows, a Whirlwind of Emotions

It is uncanny, it is always around the corner, waiting to test me once again. Life's highs and lows that I cannot avoid. Today marked the first time I went out in daylight. I drove to my first dance class ever. The excitement was sky high, and so was my heartbeat. I usually go out at night because there is comfort in the darkness. Shades and Shadows, street and clubs lights help conceal the flaws. The places I go to are sort of safe islands in a town that is certainly mostly very friendly towards my kind boosting confidence that maybe needs to be kept in perspective in other places. 

The dance lesson was great, the instructor is definitely knowledgeable and all he said made sense. He was kind enough to accept me for who I am and willing to teach me. At the end of the class, we chatted a bit more and I must have misunderstood what he said to me that basically, I was not able to do the group classes. I felt ( although I was wrong) that the reason was that I was a transgender and his customers may have a problem with that. I felt my newborn confidence of being out and about crumbling down like a brick wall hit by a 50 cal. My eyes were in tears even though I kept them in and gave him all the understanding I give to all.

I am always trying to be as respectful of others and the various social situations I find or may find myself in. I generally do not want to impose my being on anyone. I always stand aside, looking, observing and trying to understand everyone and everything around me.

Not happy with it all, afterward I went to Macy's to get some makeup for touching up my lips, again it was very busy and all kinds of people were around shopping, I was determined and kept my chin up and went. However, I was getting looks and was wondering if I was imposing myself on everyone.

Is this path only for the genetically blessed?