Need to be me at work. Can't take wearing male clothes no more.

I never thought it would become so extremely difficult to go to work faking it. Pretending to be something I never was.

I want to scream. It gets progressively more difficult each day. I need to find a way. Unfortunately,  I deal with a direct supervisor who is a bigot. The other day he said something that chilled my bones and made me vomit. A reference to nazis and gay people that was frightening.  After all the recent testimony of solidarity, support and love I have received from my family and friends, it came as a devastating blow. My wellbeing depends on this person at this moment, and I know there is still plenty of good in him but my attempts to understand everything and everybody has seriously been compromised.