Now That I am Down

It has been a while since you last visited me. A build-up of anxiety and misery. Jobless and heartless just feels too real to me. Now that I am down I just look for a way out. I have been here before, you would think I would know better, but I am broken. My Arcangel has flown away. A mute that spoke time apart instead of being a reassuring presence. I find old friends pulling me down, where I have been, holding me where I don't want to be. All I find is tears and despair, I seek refuge in the sounds and words so dear to me. More pain that comes from the depths of me. Now that I am down, please let me be.