Therapy!!
Once again strong emotions were felt yesterday on such a deep level.
I went to my therapist appointment with trepidation, excitement, and fears. It turned out to be great. She is very nice and supportive. I felt at ease. She gave me the psychological ok to go on with my journey. I did not expect it. So I am super happy not only for that but mostly because of professional validation is something I wanted. I have to be 150% sure about my feelings, I have to be clear about who I am and what can be done and just as importantly how and when.
Nevertheless, the next step is the most stressful, going to the MD to get the final ok to start HRT.
I hope my old body and my health will allow it. At this point, I know that even if it may kill me I would rather die as a female. I am fully aware that it will take a long time, maybe longer than I may even be able to fully enjoy. The slowness of the process will help sort out some other relational issues I suppose. Giving me time to see that the people dearest to me, if not accepting, will be able to deal with it all in a less damaging way for them. For now, it is great to feel that I have professional help and guidance from a nice person.
I am very happy to that this appoint went very well for you. I was concerned for you that is appointment didn’t go well. Concerns like would the therapist would not be a good fit for you. What if you got a result you wasn’t the one you were looking for. In the end, I’m glad that my gut was right. That you had nothing to be worried about. I’m looking forward to being there for you in the next step.
Happy to hear it went well!