Visually is Difficult

I have been very fortunate overall throughout my outing as the Trans woman that I am. Most of my friends have been very understanding in their own ways and have not given up on our friendship because of my Transgender status. 

Same  can be said about most of my family. They are unique individuals with their own reaction timings.

Unfortunately,  my parents are having a difficult time with it all, especially after seeing me briefly on a video chat this past weekend.  The impact of my appearance is tough on them. I feel all kinds of emotions about this, I am sad and I am sorry that they are suffering because of me being finally my true self.

It is such a weird feeling because I can' t say it enough how much happier I am as the person that can finally live her life matching her inner self with the outer self, as the proud and loving Trans woman that I am. Why is it so difficult to see this?  Is it because of the way I look?? Because I wear make up?? Because I wear gender appropriate clothing??? 

It took me this long to get where I am today, and although there are plenty of things i still want to work on to be as complete as I can be,  I am so truly full of joy and won't stop and apologize to anyone for being myself. I just can't deny myself of my own existence. 

I truly wish everyone and especially them, could embrace it all as a cause for celebration and not as a time for sadness, fears and pain.